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MY LIVE JOURNAL [May. 13th, 2006|02:12 am]
Amber
[Current Location |middle ofo the ocean]
[mood |thirstythirsty]
[music |warren haynes The Lone EP I'll be the one]

I just realized that my live journal is ugly as hell....I will correct this problem as soon as possible.
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survey [May. 12th, 2006|08:47 am]
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45 of the most random things you probably never needed to know about someone
whats your name spelt backwards?:rebma
What did you do last night?:worked on the flight deck on an aircraft carrier
The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?:downloaded?? a picture of the typhoon I'm about to be in from www.weather.com
Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?:no, but I heard something about putting it down your pants
Last time you swam in a pool?:Thailand...last month
What are you wearing?:cammie pants, a green turtleneck/jersey, boots, glasses, a fod pouch, and undergarments
How many cars have you owned?:none, not in the clear anyway
Type of music you dislike most?:anything that's not my native fucking language...how the hell am I supposed to jam out to a song if I don't know what they're saying?
Are you registered to vote?:yes
Do you have cable?:no, screw that pollution
What kind of computer do you use?:HP,Dell
Ever made a prank phone call?:of course, who hasn't
You like anyone right now?:my husband, even if he is a dirty hippy
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?:both.....never done it
Furthest place you ever traveled?:hmmmmmm.......I'm about to cross the equator for the first time, so that'll probably be the furthest
What's your favorite comic strip?:calvin & hobbes
Do u know all the words to the national anthem?:yes
Shower, morning or night?:both, the boat, morning, when I get off work
Best movie you've seen in the past month?:Domino
Favorite pizza toppings?:pepperoni, ham, mushrooms
Chips or popcorn?:chips
What cell phone provider do you have?:verizon
Have you ever smoked peanut shells?:no
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?:no
Orange Juice or apple?:orange
Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?:figueroa and martinez
favorite chocolate bar?:mr. goodbar
Who is your longest friend and how long?:jana.....since kindergarten, uhhhh...18 years
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?:uhhhh........maybe last year, on a hamburger the neighbors grilled, I didn't put it on there
Have you ever won a trophy?:cheerleading, but I think everyone got one
Favorite arcade game?:TETRIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ever ordered from an infomercial?:nope
Sprite or 7-UP?:neither......why drink something bad for you, ie carbonated, if it doesn't have caffeeine in it
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?:yep every day for the last 4 years
Last thing you bought at Walgreens?:probably cigarettes
Ever thrown up in public?:yep...on new years last year
Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?:true love
Do you believe in love at first sight?:yes
SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?:uhhhh........who the fuck is jimmy neutron? spongebob
Did you have long hair as a young kid?:no, I'm growing it out now to sell it
What message is on your voicemail machine?:something about leaving a message..nothing strange
Where would you like to go right now?:home to the USA to be with my husband
Whats the name of your pet?:no pets right now
What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?:HP (shit...I'm not using it right now)
What do you think about most?:my husband and what everyone is doing at home in the USA with the gas prices and all....going to war, typhoons, getting through my last cruise. only 83 more days out to sea
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leave [Jan. 27th, 2006|03:33 pm]
Amber
[mood |anxiousanxious]
[music |shitty radio station from next shop over]

helllzzzzzzzz yeah! I'm going on leave in about an hour. I can't fucking wait! Jason is on his way down here to get me with his friend, Tony. I am really bored at work. I am hot. I put a dip in so I'd quit smoking so much from boredom. I have some dirty dirty plans for me and Jason tonight. It's been 3 weeks since we got down.
I had an uneventful week. I was mostly pissed at Jason for being irresponsible. What the fuck is his problem? I hope this is not foreshadowing. I can't live life not knowing whether or not I'm going to be financially stable or not...or if my husband is off somewhere getting in trouble. I'm not the poster child for being responsible, but damn...I've had a steady job for the last 3 1/2 years. I can't wait to get out of the Navy either!
I ordered this thing to do on Jason www.cloneawilly.com It's pretty neat. I haven't done it yet, but I'm sure it's going to be an interesting project.
I talked my mommy and sissy for a long time the other night while polishing off 8 budweisers. I got really drunk. I'm a lightweight now. I think it's a good thing though. I realized that the last 6 months I've been eating, sleeping, and pretty much shitting. I needed to get out so I went to the bar on wednesday. I freaking got trashed. I had a 12 pack in my room...I finished that...along with $1 drafts at the bar and 2 jager bombs. I got 2 hours of sleep and came to work. It fucking sucked. Then I fought with Jason all day...that didn't help either.
I hope Jason gets here soon. I don't know how much he stopped or what he did on the way here. I gotta walk up to the front gate to get him on base b/c he still doesn't have his military id card. I'm going to be tired tonight. Maybe I'll get drunk. I guess I should see how much is on my credit card to see what I can afford.
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At work again.... [Oct. 17th, 2005|08:34 pm]
Amber
[mood |sickodin' on bc]
[music |government mule my oh my]

So, I've had a shitty day so far today. I woke up when Jason called me this morning at like 11...I wasn't mad that he didn't call me after he got off work b/c I needed a good solid 7 hours of sleep. It felt good. I got up and put on some clothes and went to go eat at the galley and saw an old friend of mine, Rachel, there. I met her at the bar one night...she's cute...and crazy like me, so I got her number and we went out a few times. She was dating this MA (master at arms-navy cop) and told me that he got out of the navy and moved to new mexico or something. She said she's in love with him and can't wait to leave here. I invited her to go see mule this weekend, but she's broke...that sucks. I went home and woke up my roomate by talking on the phone...then we did laundry and chilled for a little while. I remembered that I forgot to take my fucking birth control yesterday. So, I popped two of those little blue bitches. I felt like shit all day after that. I shouldn't have taken so high of a dose. I won't forget to take those little whores again. I hate feeling like I'm gonnna vomit. So, I felt bad, and I started being kinda depressed...I don't know what the fuck was wrong with me unless I ingested too many chemicals from that pill...I was about to call up Jason and say some crazy shit, but I thought better of it. I found out that I have duty on thursday and a watch until 730...so I can't catch a train until 830 and won't get to vacaville until 1pm. That sucks...I'll be up all fucking night...I don't care though. It's worth it. I will try to sleep on the train. Plus along with seeing jason this last weekend before going to the boat, I'll be seeing warren and it will be awesome. I called him...it's like 2130...and his phone is off. I don't know what's up, but I really want to talk to him since my day is shitty. more later on the marriage shit.......
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WTF, OVER??? [Oct. 13th, 2005|08:37 pm]
Amber
[mood |anxiousto get to Jason]
[music |dumbass navy dudes talking]

So, I've been slacking in my daily journal entries. I've been hella busy. I've been going to see Jason every weekend and I just got back from 10 days of leave that I spent with Jason. I hate that I can't see him all the time, but maybe that's good b/c we won't get tired of each other quickly. I know one thing, I don't think I've ever banged as much in 10 days as I did during those 10 leave days. I don't think it's necessarily a good thing, but it sure was fucking fun (ha! man, I love puns...especially lame ones). I'm in love with this dude. What the hell? I didn't think that would ever happen. I'm not the love type I don't think. I mean I'm passionate about shit, but never men. I always have thoughts in the back of my mind when I get involved with a dude that are negative. Maybe that's what leads to the demise of all my relationships, but this one is different. I don't think he can do anything to piss me off. WE'LL SEE! Oh, wait, yeah he has, but I'll let that shit slide since he was drunk. I still have those negative thoughts though. Like insecurities. I think shit like what if Jason is just fucking with my head. I mean, I know I'm a catch and shit, but I know there are prettier and smarter chics out there that aren't in debt, the navy, or fucking crazy like me. I don't want to be the one that gets screwed over. I'm always the mother fucking trusting fucker that gets fucked over. Why why why? I take that back....I always move away or they always move away right when shit is getting good. I still love Mark and Jay, but I guess that it wasn't meant to be. I know Jay still loves me. He says that he thinks that I'm supposed to be his girl, but I think he's too emotional. I have never met a guy like that. We had good times when I was staying with him, but the fucking navy ruined everything....or it opened the door for me and Jason...if I hadn't joined the navy, we would have never met. So, I guess there is something good about the navy. In my opinion, we are too operationally ready. I can't wait to get out of this shit...no more fucking 12-24 hour days....no more fucking duty on the weekend ruining my camping plans or interfering with me spending time with my lover...no more fucking counseling chits...no more fucking missed holidays...no more not fucking being able to leave and go see panic when I want to, or my family for that matter, no more fucking dumbass mother fucking navy dudes with swinging fucking dicks: fuck these stupid ass testosterone driven authority abusing lameass dudes. And I stress the fucking in all those things b/c I fucking hate the navy! 2 more mofoing years. Then I can be with my man all the time....speaking of, we've been talking about getting married, but I don't know if Jason is serious about it or not. We'll see how serious he is if he puts a ring on my finger or not. I think my parents are freaking out about it. haha!
I gotta go smoke before I freaking have to go do some shit on a jet. I have only worked on a few gripes tonight...they were lame. I actually busted out my respirator yesterday and grinded some shit...and my finger and hand a couple of times. That shit hurts. I have like 6 injuries from work this week. I think this weekend I'm going to get sloshed. I started getting sloshed the other night, but I didn't finish, and it felt good. I'd rather fuck with the boy, but I don't know if he's around. ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! I thought I learned my lesson when I lived in NC, but apparently not. FTN, OUT!!!!!!!!!!
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oh yeah, bush can suck a fat ass cock [Sep. 2nd, 2005|01:32 am]
Amber
[mood |angryangry]
[music |zelda music from the comp user beside me]

I was just thinking tonight...or someone got me thinking about it...what the fuck is up with our own people...at home in the u.s. not getting aided sooner. I was over in fucking hong kong on christmas when the tsunami hit and I'll be damned if we didn't cut our port visit short a roll right on over to sumatra to help those people. Are the words prior planning out of the dictionary?? I mean every news station in the fucking country showed the hurricane blowing straight for the gulf of mexico.....and bush didn't think it was going to be that bad or something, not bad enough to mobilize fucking reserves sooner. oh, well...I mean they can wait and die, starve, rot in their filth....you know shit happens.
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I'm tired [Sep. 2nd, 2005|01:18 am]
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[mood |annoyedannoyed]
[music |wsp gradle 9/15/97]

So, the last few days of this week are dragging by as I suspected they would when I'm looking forward to a long fun weekend with "panic spread wide jason" (in the words of my friend David). I am soo fucking tired and at work doing nothing. I wish I could just go home. It's good to be sleeping in my own bed again though. I finally got in touch with my folks today...thanks for the call to tell me you're not dead from the hurricane, asses! It's been 4 days. I guess I should have been more persistent in my attempts to track them down, but oh well. Everyone is alive...inculding the dogs...thank God they didn't treat them like they did my fucking cat that I'd had since 4th grade. What happened to my baby last month is still a fucking mystery to me. I love you, Corky! I guess I'm in a bad mood right now. I think it's b/c I'm hungry, lazy, and tired. That and my fucking breasts hurt from taking my damned prescription birth control pills. I hope this shit ends, or I'll have to go tell that stupid ass doctor to give me a different kind. I don't remember having these side effects when I was on it like a year ago..I was on that shit for like 3 years, so one would think I would notice. Why the fuck do my boobs hurt.
so, I still need to get in touch with Jana. Peyton's second b-day is on the 4th...woo hoo. It was a beautiful thing to witness this little girl's birth. One of the most memorable things that I've been witness to since joining the navy..I'm glad I was on leave when the shit went down. I was on leave back in July and I got to be the whole fam for her first beach visit...That was cool as hell. At first she was a little scared of the water, but after like 15 minutes she was sitting down and throwing sand at Jana and me. She had sand all in her hair and ours. It was great. I wonder when it's my turn. It will be cool b/c then I won't have to take these fucking hormonally imbalancing piece of shit breast tenderizing pills. Damn, I'm pissed. I am going to screw off on the internet some more, and try not to think about the things pissing me off at the moment. 1 more day!!!!!!!
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paid [Aug. 31st, 2005|11:22 pm]
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so, I got paid finally....and i got my ticket!!!!!!! woo hoo! pigeons just came on..I hope that's not a bad sign. only 2 more days to wait...fucking days are going to go by slow too.
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Work Sucks x infinity [Aug. 31st, 2005|10:53 pm]
Amber
I'm at work...oh, God, Why?? I need some food. I haven't eaten since like 10am...and it's fucking 11pm. If I would get off my ass, I could make some noodles or something, but I can't get off my ass. getting up at 830 this morning was a bad idea, but I'm excited about this weekend. I'm going to buy a train ticket to see Jason this weekend when I get paid, but we're all getting paid unusually late tonight. I usually get paid around 1030. so, I'm sitting here at the desk thinking about this weekend and taking the occasional smoke break...wishing I had something good to eat. I have hatfield in my head...and only one line..."the indians they don't like us much.." don't ask me why, but it's been in my head all day. maybe it's b/c it rained every fucking day in key west...like hatfield made it rain. who knows??? "my lips hurt real bad" and I can't find my fucking chapstick. ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ewww I just had to put lotion on my lips. it burned. So, next week on tuesday and wednesday I have to work with my shop....it's going to be hellatious, I think, b/c we're gearing up for the boat and working long hours...I miss being in the AT shop, but not enough. I am enjoying fucking off in corrosion too much. I mean I'm shit hot when I work with my shop, but the idea of going back right now when everything is so hectic b/c of live day isn't that appeasing.
I feel good about key west. I got hit on a lot...and by higher ups in my squadron. I don't understand how these old married dudes can think a girl my age and a girl in their squadron would do anything with them...don't they have morals...oh, wait, they're sailors. fuck that. I got my free drinks and nothing on my conscience. It feels good to be true to someone that I think deseves it..hope deserves it. I wish it weren't sooo hard for me to let go and trust. I have to realize that I have nothing to lose in doing this...I mean, I may get hurt...but I think it's worth it to take a chance. I gotta make myself believe this. I am doing good right now. I've told Jason too much.like how much I like him, but I guess it's better he knows that I get attached quickly, and get hurt quickly. I have learned over the last two years, or I think I have, that not everyone deserves me...and am pissed off when I get involved with assholes over and over...it's my own damned fault. *****I still haven't gotten paid****** crap!!!!!!!!
I gotta get off this shit for a while and find some food before I pass out.
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Key West [Aug. 23rd, 2005|08:46 am]
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So, I'm in Key West!!! I get to chill here for 10 days. I've had fun so far, but I miss Jason. I went and met him and frost, who were staying in fresno, and we hit it off. I met him on www.panicfreaks.org my favorite band's message forum. We've officially declared we're "going steady" haha! I am really psyched about the whole thing. I think we're moving a little too fast, but it's all my fault. I don't know how it happened, but it did and I'm diggin' it. I wish he didn't live 3 hours away and work away from me all week (like right now he works 5 hours away from me) It's kinda hard since I don't have a car. I hope it works out for us. I haven't felt like this about someone since Mark....and that was 2 years ago. I am really insecure when it comes to relationships...or I might say pessimistic. It's sad, but it's like I'm waiting for something bad to happen. I don't know why. I will write more later.
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